When people talk about getting help by going into an in patient/out patient program at a hospital, they act like it’s some kind of prison. but really, and I’m speaking from experience, these programs are super helpful. Especially when something just isn’t right in your life.
Thinking back, I can remember a time when I was around 16 or so, and I was struggling with hardcore depression. I never wanted to enroll into a program because I was so scared. Many people said negative things I was told about these hospitals. A lot of these people have never even been in a program. But I was sick of how I was feeling. I had to get help, so I went to my schools counselors office. I finally opened up about everything I was feeling.
Honestly, at this point, I was scared shitless. Especially when my mom was called. I was scared she wouldn’t understand. And I didn’t want her to have to go through any trouble because of me. But the first thing she said to me is “I’m not mad, it’s okay”. I felt better but I was still scared. I knew I had to be evaluated and I was nervous of having to stay in a hospital overnight without my family.
But I didn’t end up having stay at the hospital overnight, I was put in a outpatient program that I had to attend everyday for about 6 hours. I was in this program for about two to three weeks, which was average for everyone else there.
Something I quickly realized while there, most of the people who did not like the program didn’t want to receive the help. The thing is, to get help and feel better you have to WANT to get help and feel better. they were in a negative mindset where they did not want to receive any help. The people who where thinking so negatively didn’t want help. Obviously not all programs are for everyone, but there are so many out there to choose from. I truly believe that there is one out there for you, and everyone else struggling. I was finally getting help. Keep your mind open. Keep searching.
During my time in the program, I improved greatly. While there, I had individual therapy sessions and group therapy sessions, we learned different skills to use in life once we are discharged. Some of those skills include different coping mechanisms, how to handle stressful situations and how to be mindful.
The best thing about the program I was in was that it did not interfere with being at school. My school still made some accommodations for me to be able to work stress free such as moving my deadlines back for my work. Many schools and workplaces will make these accommodations available with doctors notes, do not be embarrassed to speak up. Just remember that you are doing this to help and better yourself. You have nothing to be ashamed of.
Most people who I have met that have been in inpatient or outpatient programs always say that they definitely recommend it to others. Something to note is that you have to go to these programs with a positive mindset.
If you feel like there is too much weight on your shoulders to bear, and nothing seems to be working. You should definitely look into getting an evaluation and entering a program. Don’t listen to anything or anyone that’s telling you that getting this kind of help means your “weak”, “crazy” or “weird”. Do whats important to your mental health. If you need any help or advice feel free to contact me.
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